I’ve once again failed to be diligent in updates… in part to my usual scattered brain, but also in part to a cloud of anxiety.
A few weeks ago we found out friends of ours were also expecting. It was very exciting news, as we were due about the same time. A few nights later I had a horribly graphic nightmare that I miscarried. Needless to say, I was very on edge after that. After a few days, I started to believe it was just a dream and I needed to let it go… only to have the news delivered that our friends had actually miscarried. So… unbelievably sad… and my anxiety spiked again. Two nights later, a still birth on our favorite show… followed promptly by a miscarriage portrayal on This Is Us (why did I start watching that show!)…. it’s like it just circles around us and I was convinced we’d be getting bad news at our first midwife appt.
Well last week, at 9 weeks + 1 day, we saw this:
With a steady heartbeat of 174bpm and a load of wiggles too boot. Our little junebug is measure spot on and everything looks great. What a relief. I know it’s still early and we’re not really in the clear (are our ever?), but it helped my anxiety a great deal. Thank goodness for our sweet midwife who suggested right off the bat that we go ahead and take a peak via ultrasound, even tho there wasn’t any real reason to do so other than to calm my soul.
I was also able to find the baby’s heartbeat myself yesterday @ 10w+2 on our home Doppler. I can’t wait to get to the feeling them move part so I can maybe chill out and enjoy this more.
I’ve started feeling a lot better… well kinda. The pregnancy specific symptoms are manageable these days. However, I’ve had the worlds worst cold for nearly 2 wks now and I’m soooooooo over all the snot! Things could be worse tho, so just plugging along.
We told some family over the holiday weekend. That was fun, lots of excitement. I expected there to be less enthusiasm seeing as it’s our 3rd kiddo, but it almost seemed like even more was there for this one. Pretty cool! Looking forward to my parents finally returning from their two month vacation so we can finally tell them too! And my sister – who is due in April – I really can’t wait for us to have babies together this time.
We also told our kids. Obviously the youngest hasn’t got a clue what’s going on, but the big one is stoked to have another sibling!
Other than that, we are in full blown Christmas mode and I am loving it! Favorite time of the year!
Hope all is well with all of you!